Post Death Soundtrack: In All My Nightmares I Am Alone

Grief, Grit, and Glitch: Post Death Soundtrack’s ‘In All My Nightmares I Am Alone’

by Jack Rush

Stephen Moore returns under his long-running project Post Death Soundtrack with In All My Nightmares I Am Alone, a towering 30-track odyssey that straddles the line between breakdown and breakthrough. Described by Moore himself as "a complete breakdown in audio format," the album is as raw and unflinching as its title suggests — a chaotic dive into trauma, mental illness, grief, and fragile hope that leaves no emotion unturned and no genre untouched.

Opening with “Tremens,” a track completed during a bout of delirium tremens (a state with a 15% mortality rate), the listener is immediately thrown into a vortex of industrial pulses, haunted vocals, and scorched electronic soundscapes. From there, Moore unleashes a blitzkrieg of sound and sentiment — with each track acting as another flare from the psyche’s darkest corners. “Good Time Slow Jam (In All My Nightmares I Am Alone)” and “A Monolith of Alarms” channel the anxious energy of Skinny Puppy and Front Line Assembly, fusing industrial dissonance with lyrical despair. It’s music as exorcism, made with the urgency of survival.

But this is no one-note record. In All My Nightmares refuses to stay in one sonic lane. Across its sprawling runtime, Moore shifts gears from punk fury (“Final Days”), to acoustic lament (“We Fall”), to surreal folk (“Desert Wind”), to moody trip-hop textures (“Hypnotizer”) — all with a singular voice rooted in anguish and honesty. The result is stylistic whiplash by design, as if genre itself is too small a box to hold the emotional intensity on display.

The album is also peppered with covers that feel more like reanimations than reinterpretations. The Velvet Underground’s “Venus in Furs,” Nick Drake’s “River Man,” and Tom Waits’ “God’s Away On Business” are reimagined through Moore’s cracked lens — reverent yet feral. “River Man,” in particular, is a standout: a lo-fi apartment recording from 2010 that somehow becomes a centerpiece, fragile in its imperfections and all the more haunting for it.

Elsewhere, Moore mines personal history for heartbreaking moments of sincerity. “Something Stirs,” inspired by a childhood ghost story and a traumatic robbery involving stolen kittens, is harrowing in its vulnerability. “Song for Bonzai,” an instrumental tribute to a recently departed cat, radiates grief, love, and quiet strength. These aren’t just songs — they’re unfiltered transmissions from a man baring his soul in real time.

And yet, for all its darkness, In All My Nightmares I Am Alone is never gratuitous. Every scream, every whisper, every distortion effect is in service of something human. There is beauty here — not the polished kind, but the kind that lives in bruises and catharsis. By the time the album closes with its sparse, devastating title track, the listener feels less like they’ve heard an album and more like they’ve survived something with the artist.

Following 2024’s Veil Lifter — a doom-grunge opus that earned acclaim from the underground press — Moore pivots sharply. Gone is the polished doom wall of sound; in its place is a jagged scrapbook of demos, resurrected tracks from 2009–2011, and new material recorded mid-crisis. Somehow, it all works. Moore’s guiding light isn’t genre or polish — it’s truth.

This isn’t a record for casual listening. It demands presence, patience, and a willingness to confront uncomfortable realities. But for those who enter its labyrinth, In All My Nightmares I Am Alone offers more than catharsis — it offers communion. It is the sound of someone refusing to censor pain, choosing instead to burn it into something that might help others feel seen.

With a new HE IS ME album (HEL’S MOUTH) on the horizon, Moore shows no signs of slowing down. But In All My Nightmares I Am Alone might stand as his most personal and uncompromising work to date — a sonic testament to survival through honesty.

Verdict:
Unrelenting, unfiltered, and unexpectedly beautiful, In All My Nightmares I Am Alone is a staggering achievement in outsider art — and one of the boldest independent releases of the year.

FFO: Nine Inch Nails, Nick Drake, Tom Waits, Swans, Scott Walker, Skinny Puppy.

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